Once I get back to Manchester I’m going to set myself weight goals and other goals so that I can lose weight. I’m fed up of being the “fat” one in my family and having my mum look at me the way that she does when we buy clothes. I never used to be this big. I just put on a lot of weight quite quickly so it was a shock. Gonna really try this time though. If my gym membership comes out of my own pocket I’ll be more likely to go.
I am under 18. I am a cuddler. I am a morning person. I am an only child. I am currently in my pajamas. I am currently pregnant. I am left handed. l am right handed. I am ambidextrous. I am a little shy around the opposite sex. I bite my nails. I can be paranoid at times. I enjoy folk music. I enjoy smoothies. I enjoy talking on the phone. I have a car. I have/had a hard time paying attention at school. I have a hidden talent. I have a pet. I have a tendency to fall for the “wrong” guy/girl. I have all my grandparents. I have been to another country. I have been told that I have an unusual sense of humor. I have or had broken a bone. I have caller I.D. on my phone. I have bathed someone. I have changed a diaper. I have changed a lot over the past year. I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color. I have had major/minor surgery. I have killed another person. I have had my hair cut within the last week. I have mood swings. I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life. I have rejected someone before. I like the taste of blood. I love Michael Jackson. I love sleeping. I love to shop. I own 100 CDs or more. I own and use a library card. I read books for pleasure in my spare time. I sleep a lot during the day. I watch soap operas on a regular basis. I work at a job that I enjoy. I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free I am wearing socks. I am tired. I love to paint/draw/sketch/sculpt. I consume at least one alcoholic drink every month.
I have/had: Finished college. Smoked a cigarette Ridden every ride at an amusement park. Collected something really stupid. Gone to a concert. Helped someone. Watched four movies in one night. Been broken up with. Been in a car accident. Been in a tornado. Watched someone die. Been to a funeral. Burned yourself. Ran a marathon. Your parents got divorced. Cried yourself to sleep. Spent over $200 in one day. Cheated on someone. Been cheated on. Written a 10 page letter. Had a best friend. Lost someone you loved. Skipped school. Gotten in trouble for something you didn’t do. Watched the “Harry Potter” movies. Fired a gun. Been in a school play. Been fired from a job. Attempted suicide. Written poetry. Read more than 20 books a year. Gone to Europe. Used a coloring book over age 12. Had surgery. Had stitches. Taken a taxi. Had more than 5 online conversations going at once. Dyed your hair. Had something pierced.
My hair is naturally the color: Light brown Medium brown Dark brown Blond Black Dirty blond Strawberry blond Multicolored Red
My eyes are: Brown Dark Brown Blue Green Hazel Light brown
People sometimes label me as: Slut Boyish Colorful Ugly Nerd Other
Some of my biggest fears are: Spiders/other insects Slimy things Hospitals Needles Disease Being alone in the dark Heights Small spaces Small animals Open spaces
I have: A friend with benefits A laptop in my room Good grades My own car Parents who are still married A dog A cat A game console
I just got home and had to pretend to my mum that I fell asleep at my friends house instead of the fact that I was up all night at a girl that I vaguely know’s house. So tired, but I have to take my grandma to the doctors at half 10 to get her ears syringed, so there’s no point in me sleeping until I get home from that. But I am literally dead on my feet, even typing this is effort. I shouldn’t have gotten into bed. :(
I’m so glad I didn’t buy McFly’s best of album. Of the three new songs on it, I really don’t like one of them, and it wouldn’t have been worth buying the whole album for two new songs. Actually, I think it’s two of the three that I don’t like. :(
kinda nervous about starting this new job, as every job I’ve had previously hasn’t worked out after only a little while.
The Half Moon in Putney, I did one shift a week in the kitchen for a few months (like 2) and then she just stopped contacting me, and wouldn’t pick up her phone or anything :(
There was the odeon, which fired me for not putting enough effort in.. (4 months)
Zenith (your home improved), which was essentially a form of torture, and I was fired only because he found out I’d been looking for another job and beat me to it. (Lasted two and a bit weeks. If that. Might have been one and a bit.)
Maximus Global, again, a horrible, commission based job, which I was fired for not having the right attitude and for my “emotions being all over the place”.. I had hayfever and severe issues with it and he thought it was an excuse.. also, you can’t expect everybody to always be all smiley etc at 10am when they got home at midnight and had to leave the house at 7 to get there on time. (3ish weeks? He made me take a few days off at the start to get my emotions sorted.. shouldn’t have gone back after that tbh. )
And finally in the list of jobs that’ve gone wrong is TABlites, an electronic cigarette company. Was all going well then they started to take longer and longer to give me hours and then my sales assisstant role turned into a flyering role, where they still took ages to contact me, so I quit. Went to the shop to give my stuff back and quit, the guy was like, oh, okay, thanks. That’s all he said. Wtf?
So yeah, hopefully this one will be better, its a kitchen job at spoons, so fingers crossed, but with that history, you know why I’m nervous about it!
Apparently I want to sleep with all of my friend's boyfriends.
I know that I shouldn’t be letting these stupid little girls get to me, but the fact that they just keep going on, and when one of them is quiet for a while the other starts up again. You’d think after 2 whole days of me just ignoring it and actually being out of the country that they’d get bored and move on.
Nope. I’m still a slut and I still want to/have slept with their boyfriends/exes. None of which is true! :(
I am really, really bored of it. Just grow up. Or in Lauren’s case, go back to studying for your A-Levels.